Books that Wrecked Me in 2020 | Blogmas Day 17

Hi everyone! When I started to write this post, I had no idea that I had read so many books that made me sad or emotional in 2020. I usually like reading fluffy, fun, adventurous books more than heartbreaking ones, but this year I made a lot of exceptions to that without realizing it and today I want to talk about them.

Undead Girl Gang by Lily Anderson

Plot: Mila’s best friend and two other girls from her school die and everyone thinks it’s a suicide pact, but Mila doesn’t believe it, so she brings the girls back to life through witchcraft to uncover the truth, but they only have 7 days to do it.

This book actually is very fun and entertaining, but the ending, which is very obvious from the premise of the book, was really sad and I ended up crying, which I don’t do often.

A Heart in a Body in the World by Deb Caletti

Plot: something tragic happens to Annabelle and, as a response to it, she runs from Seattle to Washington, DC and tries to process and heal from what happened.

This is a heavy book, it’s a powerful story about ptsd, grief and slowly healing. From the beginning, we know that something happened and that it’s the product of toxic masculinity, but it’s not clear what happened and learning the details was still devastating and I definitely teared up while reading it.

More Happy than Not by Adam Silvera

Plot: Aaron is struggling after a family tragedy and his new best friend, Thomas, helps him get throught it. As Thomas and Aaron get closer, Aaron discovers things about himself that he wants to forget, and a revolutionary memory-alteration procedure might be the solution.

This book is full of twist and turns that make this book really interesting and complex. The ending was heartbreaking, bittersweet and shocking and it wrecked me.

The Marrow Thieves by Cherie Dimaline

Plot: People have lost the ability to dream and this has led to widespread madness. The marrow of Indigenous people holds the cure for the rest of the world, but getting it means death for the unwilling donors. This is the story of a fifteen-year-old and his companions struggling to survival while being hunted.

This book has an interesting but devastating concept, there was a point while reading when I couldn’t help but think “WHAT ELSE ARE YOU GOING TO DO TO THEM?!” because things keep going wrong.

The Fifth Season by N.K. Jemisin

Plot: In a world where natural disasters are constantly happening, there are people who are able to manipulate the earth to ease them and these people are treated as slaves. The story revolve around three women who have these powers.

This book is brilliant but the journey all of the characters go through is heartbreaking. The last 80 pages made me feel hopeless and angry and devastated. This book was one bad thing happening after another and there was an actual flashforward that skipped the part where the characters were happy just to continue with the terrible things. The reason why is explained in the book but it was still very hard to read.

Jade City by Fonda Lee

Plot: this story is about a war between two clans over magical jade, but it mainly revolves around the family that leads one of the clans.

There’s one scene in this book that broke my heart, I was like “NOOOOO” and Fonda Lee was “oh yes”. This book hurt me so badly because I was so invested in the story and I loved the main characters so much.

The Dragon Republic by R.F. Kuang

Plot: Rin is a poor, brown girl who gets into a very prestiguos combat school and it’s trained for war, and when war comes she has to do terrible things to stay alive and to win the war.

This book is overall very grim because it’s about war and while the ending is pretty devasting, the reason this is on this list is that something happened that shocked me and made me angry, because some characters were treated as disposable and I think it was on purpose to show how a lot of people are treated during a war by the people in power, but I didn’t love it. So what happened hurt and the way it was handled hurt too.

The Test by Sylavain Neuvel

Plot: This is the story of an Iranian immigrant who’s taking the British citizenship test so he and his family can stay in the UK, but it turns out nothing is what it seems. 

This is a quick, interesting and twisted novella about the choices we make and the choices we have to live with. There are lots of twists and turns and most of them are sad and frustrating. The ending is devastating and it made me so angry.

The House of the Spirits by Isabel Allende

Plot: This is the story of three generations of the Trueba family, a story set in Chile that mixes the personal and the political. It’s an epic novel of love, magic, and fate. 

The last 100 pages of this book are brutal and brilliant, I teared up reading them and I was incredibly emotionally affected by everything that happened. The ending was heartbreaking and it was such a painful commentary on the cyclyc nature of violence

And Every Morning the Way Home Gets Longer and Longer by Fredrick Backman

Plot: This is the story ofan elderly man’s struggle to hold on to his most precious memories, and his family’s efforts to care for him even as they must find a way to let go.

This was an emotional and moving novella. I cried from beginning to end, every word in this was heart wrenching.

Land of the Cranes by Aida Salazar

Plot: This book tells the story of an undocumented Mexican girl living in the States, and it addresses the nightmare that thousands of people are currently living in the United States thanks to the zero-tolerance policies and mass deportations of the current government.

I had a lump in my throat the entire time I was reading this. This book is brutal and the poetry in the book is so evocative and the fact that it’s a little girl, who doesn’t entirely understand what’s happening, the one that tells the story makes it even more effective in transmitting how devastating the whole situation is. This book is heartbreaking in a way that only fantastic books can be.

Waht books wrecked you in 2020? Have You read any of the books I mentioned?

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