Life Update

Life Update: heartbreak and asking for book recommendations

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Hi guys! I know I haven’t posted in a while, getting back into blogging consistently has been harder than what I thought it  was gonna be.

I’m sorry, because this post is not gonna be very interesting. This past few weeks have been hard because some things were happening in my relationship with my boyfriend and it was a very sad period of time. Last night, we finally decided to break up after a little over two years together and I have been in a cry fest since then. But this post isn’t about that.  I just wanted to ask for recommendations of books that I can read while going through hearbreak. Here are some of the things I’m looking for:

  • Books that made you laugh or made you happy
  • I usually read New Adult when I’m feeling anxious or sad, so if you have New Adult recommendations, those are welcome as well.
  • The easy to read, make you feel better type of YA Contemporary. ( I just finished When Dimple Met Rishi a few minutes ago and it really distracted me and help me stop feeling sad for a little bit).
  • Some fantasy or sci fi that has a good romance and it’s really entertaining may help as well.
  • If you can think of any other things that makes me feel better, go ahead and tell me below.
  • Also, it can be a movie or tv show that made you laugh or made you happy, or that you  think it would be entertaining and it would distract me right now.

That’s it! Thank you for reading this and please let me your recommendations in the comments.

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Life and Blogging Update

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Hi guys! I have been gone for the last three weeks and I wanted to talk about why. I will begin by saying that this is my last semester of classes at uni, I still have to do a 6 month intership and I need to finish my thesis, so I have one semester left after I finish this one in around three weeks. Having said that, one of the main reasons I haven’t been posting that much is because I’m turning in papers for the six courses that I’m currently taking, I have been doing prep for interviwes and I have been working on my thesis.

Well, that’s not actually the reason why. Having so much to do and everything being so urgent made my anxiety so bad that I haven’t sleeping, I have been worring non-stop, I have not been eating that much at times and binge eating at other times, I have been restless, I have been crying a lot, my back has been hurting so much, my chronic digestive problems have been out of control and so many other things.  What I’m trying to say is that my anxiety has been terrible. 

In the middle of april, my ‘solution’ for my anxiety was reading. I know that doesn’t seem so bad! But I was reading books and that made me forget for a little bit and allowed me to ignore a lot of the pressure and most of my responsabilities. The problem was that the fact that I was ignoring that responsabilities didn’t not mean that they disappered. So after two weeks or almost three of ignoring everything, I have spent the last two weeks trying to catch up with everything, which means I have spent two weeks where my anxiety has been so bad that I can barely function and do everything I have to do.

The good news is that I have officially catched up with uni stuff, I went to an interview for an intership that I really want to get last week and it went great (please send me good vibes, they let me know on monday if I got it or not!) and I’m slowly advancing on my thesis (which is better than not advancing at all). I have been doing some things that help with my anxiety like yoga and writing a lot of list and even if it has been terrible, I managed to survive the last couple of days.

So, what does this mean for the blog? Well, I do have finals for the next two weeks. My last finals! Which is exciting even if I want to be done with them. But I feel better and I’m gonna start posting again because I miss it a lot. Actually, I have written this post in my mind a few times, but I haven’t been up to actually typing it thanks to my anxiety and the one time I actually tried to write this, I saw that my last post was published so long ago and that made my feel awful and suddenly I couldn’t bring myself to writing it. I’m so happy of finally writing this!

Thanks for reading it! I know it’s not book related but I just wanted to share this with you guys.

Life Update

Things I’ve Been Loving Recently: Books, Movies, TV Shows, Music & More

Things I've been loving recently

Today, I thought it would be a good idea to talk about some things that I’ve been loving in 2017, so this post will cover January, February and the first weeks of March.

BOOKS

These are my top 5 books I have read so far in 2017, or at least I think so, it’s just that I have read so many amazing books this year that it was really hard to choose my favorites and I’m still not entirely sure about my picks. My favorite definitely is How to Make a Wish, there’s diversity, a cute love story between two girls, and a honest depiction of a complicated relationship between a mother and a daughter.  Here are my reviews for How to Make a Wish and God Smites and Other Muslim Girl Problems. You can read my thoughts about the other books in my January Wrap Up and my February Wrap Up.

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MOVIES

I haven’t watch that many movies in 2017, but these 3 are definitely the ones that stand out. My favorite was Hidden Figures, I love stories about women doing amazing things, especially if they are women of color, so I definitely loved this one; the acting was amazing and there’s a scene where Katherine screams at this room full of white people that’s my favorite scene of any movie I have watched this year. A the same time, I think for the cinematography and for the importance of the story, Moonlight is outstanding and I found La La Land entertaining even if I recognize that it’s problematic, mainly I liked the songs.

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TV SHOWS

I watched a lot of TV Shows and right now I’m behind in most of them, because I have been really busy. The only ones I’m not behind in are Jane the Virgin and Grey’s Anatomy. I’m loving them both; Jane is always great because being latinx myself I can related to a lot of things that happen in the show and Grey’s is one of my favorite show of all times and I’m liking this season so far.

I have started to watch two new shows thia year: one is One Day at a Time, which I found incredibly funny because again being latinx I can related to a lot of things, this show has been great because when my anxiety gets really bad I can watch this and feel a bit better. I have also been watching Big Little Lies. which I’m very intrigued by and I’m enjoying it so far.

MUSIC

This is the playlist of songs I have been loving lately. I’m currently obssesed with Green Light by Lorde.

BLOGGERS & BOOKTUBERS 

Here are some booktubers and bloggers I have been loving, go check them out!

One thing that made me happy recently is that T just started her blog Novel Paradise ! I have been following her for a while on Twitter and I’m happy to be able to read her reviews and opinions in her own blog.

I have a new favorite blog and it’s Puput’s blog Sparkling Letters, I discovered her blog recently after moving from blogger  to wordpress and I love all her post.

I just found a new booktuber to follow, she is Adriana @Perpetual Pages and she is a latinx. I’m so excited about that! I don’t enought latinx bootubers and I really need to do it.

As always, I’m ejoying Dana’s videos @The Book Horder. She is one of my favorite booktubers.

COVERS

I follow a lot of people on Youtube that make covers, I chose the cover of Lost Boy by the Gardiner Sisters because I have been obssesed with it the last month and a half and I chose the cover of Scars to Your Beutiful by Cimorelli because I have been loving it the last week since they posted it. Th fact that they are both groups of sisters is a total coincidence, btw.

That’s it! Those are some of the things that I have been loving lately. Let me know in the coments, if you like any of the things in this list. Also, tell me what things have you been loving recently. I would love to know! 

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Anxiety Sucks A.K.A the reason I have been gone

Hi guys! I’m so glad to be back! If you have been following this blog for a while, you probably know that from time to time I take these unannounced hiatuses. If you haven’t been following that long or you just didn’t notice, I do the ‘unannounced hiatus’ thing from time to time. Usually, when I come back form these hiatuses I say something like “I have been really busy with school,with work,with life in general” or something along those lines. But today I’m writing a really scary post, because I’m gonna share a part of my life that I usually don’t talk about that much. Not even in ‘real’ life (I am getting better at sharing and talking about it in my day to day life with the people around me, but I didn’t use to do it).

So here’s what I want to say, I have had anxiety as long as I can remember. I didn’t always know how to called it or what it was, actually I thought it was ‘normal’ for a long time. In recent years I have come to accept it as a part of my life and I felt I was getting really good at handling it. Nonetheless, the last few months proved me absolutely wrong. My anxiety has been worst than at any other time in my life,  the last two months (a little more, maybe) have been so incredibly hard.
I have always gotten stressed easily, which makes my anxiety so much worst, or my anxiety makes me feel stress easily? I’m not sure. Lately, things have gotten a lot worst. I have been getting stressed by the smallest things and the situation usually gets out of my control SO fast. Within minutes I lose the capability of having rational thoughts and actually looking for solutions to my problems. I just don’t see a way out of them. That’s why things like school,  work, my blog and life in general get so hard for me to handle, and I end up having to give something up -usually my blog- for a while.  On top of all the stress and not seeing a way out for the smallest problems, I have been moody, I have been passing none stop, actually I have been moving none stop (my hands, my feet, I just can’t stop!), I have been feeling like I need to eat every few minutes, I feel like crying several times a day. Honestly, I  have been feeling like my life is getting out of control.
The usual way I release my anxiety is by crying. In the past, I  just started crying when I couldn’t take the feeling of ‘something crawling out of my chest’ anymore. So I would cry for a little bit, not often, just from time to time and I was alright. The first sign that this time my anxiety was getting to a really bad point or at least the first sign that worried me, was that I was having this crying ‘attacks’ -I don’t know how else to called them- more often. More that once a week, which it’s a lot more than normal for me, I would need to cry to feel better and that just doesn’t feel like something healthy to do. At least not anymore.
I always thought that my anxiety was too ‘normal’ – I mean too close to what most people feel in stressful situations- but recentely I have realised that it surpased that point and that I really need to do something about it. I have been doing some things that make me feel better (I will talk about them in another post) and right now, I’m looking at my options regarding  profesional help. It’s just that I’m a really quiet person and it gives me anxiety just to think that I have to go and talk to someone. I don’t know yet,  I’m considering it.  But like I said, for now I have found other ways to feel better. So that’s good! And I’m feeling better, especially since I’m on winter break. So don’t worry!
This got long and way too personal. I hope you don’t mind, I think I just needed to write all of that. I needed to be honest before starting to post the usual bookish things again.  If anyone feels like this and needs to talk, whenever you need, I’m here.